So penile enlargement isnt a consideration here...? On a serious note, If SHE initiated the breakup, would you have felt better about it then? If thats the case, maybe it hurts cuz YOU might have been the best thing for HER, and she was led on a little? There isn't much you can do to get on anyone's good side about that...all you can do is not enter in that type of arrangement again. Or just not feel guilty about it (which you shouldnt, really..) You werent fulfilled so you broke it off. You didnt settle. So either raise the bar like another poster said. Or just concentrate on having fun in whatever you else you get enjoyment from, and worry about all that later. Sometimes when you DONT think about women, or dont approach trying to meet the (IMPOSSIBLE) social standard", they respond to THAT
