I'm agnostic as well, so church is out. I spent many years in baptist schools....not going that route again. I don't mean that as a condemnation of religion, either. In all sincerity: thanks for the suggestion. As for video games and the like, my PS2 is in Houston (no money for upgrades, whether PS3 or the TV to make it worthwhile), and I intend to keep it there. While my grades are great, my study habits aren't, and I tend to get sucked into video games rather easily. I have gotten lazy as a result of my situational depression, and I haven't been working out. Impending finals don't help with that, either. I do plan on getting back into the gym, though. As for volunteer work, I don't have time for any extra volunteer work. We're already required to do it in the nursing program, anyway....I'm just surrounded by my classmates....the same people who don't socialize. Kind of a Catch 22. And yes, I was just venting. I do appreciate any suggestions, don't get me wrong, even though that wasn't my intent for this thread.
I feel for ya man. My girlfriend is in a nursing program, and it's the same thing for her. She's kind of gone through the same thing. Like you, she's putting in the hard work (i.e. reading 5 million pages a night, she has nearly a 4.0, perfect attendance,etc.). She kind of went through the same thing for a while. Myself, I just graduated from a hard-nosed program like that about 6 months ago, so I kind of know what you mean, too. Now that I'm done, I'm so glad I did it. I'm working full time, but I feel like I have a ton of free time because as a student, I worked nearly 40 hours a week (not counting studying) with school, and worked a job for 25 hours a week. But I know what you mean. I swear, it seems like most of the time I spend with my girlfriend is with her studying. It'll all be worth it in the end, though.
Man, i'll give you some advice. I bolded the parts where I thought you could work on. I honestly thought you were a girl when you said your hair is down to your ass. Why do you have a woman's hair length? That's weird. Get a haircut. Plus your planning on being a nurse shouldn't you be more professional? Dude, your 33... try hanging around people your age. If people know your age yes, 33 is pretty old. Also, shouldn't it be time to settle down? You should've done your partying 10 years ago. I recently turned 29 and occassionally go out but I never try kick it with college kids. Honestly, I can relate to what your going through because I was in the same shoes as you several years ago. I'm from Hawaii (Oahu) and joined the military and was stationed at Tinker AFB (OKC). When I got there I was like wtf where am I. I felt like a loner in the beginning and missed home but the first year there I met a ton of people, whom I still talk to. Theres tons of stuff to do in oklahoma, just gotta know who is having the parties etc. I even remember going to Lawton (1 hour drive from OKC) for some activities. So really I don't get it when you say "NO ONE socializes". Not to be so blunt but maybe its you that is weird/old that they don't want to kick it with you??
Just to make you feel better about yourself, I will share my story. I live in the heart of San Francisco, next to the Ninth Circuit Court of Appeals (largest federal circuit court), the CA Supreme Court, and the federal district court for Northern CA. Before coming up to start law school, I kept hearing about how wonderful it is. How I have to check out so and so and blah and blah. How I don't need my car b/c of the great public transportation system. I have been here since August and the only thing I have seen is the Tenderloins (very "interesting" neighborhood that I live in). I didn't get to go back to LA for Thanksgiving so my Thanksgiving dinner was a pizza w/ coke. My classes ended on Nov. 21 and since then I have been in a room in the main school building w/o any windows from 10 am to 1:30 pm. The only breaks I get are lunch and sometimes dinner (if I have time). The school is very competitive b/c of the stupid 10% curve for As that students are trying to increase but administators are refusing to do. This makes it hard b/c human nature forces kids to get very unwelcoming at this time of year and very shady. To add to this, I am a very friendly and outgoing person and it is not in my nature to be shady and secretive. I am always happy and loving life so the other kids think I am an ******* since I really don't put as much emphasis on the grades and just want to enjoy life. I just finished my first law school exam which I hand wrote for 3 1/2 hours non-stop. **** sucked ass. On top of that I went in to take the test w/ the sun out and when I got out, it was pitch black. WTF happened to my day? I have two more exams left so until Dec. 16 that schedule is going to be my life. And the thought of having to write for another 3 1/2 hours and a 4 hour exam scares the **** out of me b/c my hand is going to break. I need to buy a new laptop so that I can type like everyone else. The only thing that is keeping me alive is the joy my parents get from me being here, the fact that I am only 2 1/2 years away from getting m legal license, and the fact that I will get to do what I enjoy. So to end this long ran ( ) look at the bright side, tell people who are mad at you for enjoying life to "**** off" and keep telling yourself you are almost there.
Dude, What nights/times are you at AlphaBowl? I'm in that area twice a week till 8:30 or so, I might have to drop in and say hi.
Dude, San Francisco is not that bad. I've been there on several occasions because my gf now goes to school there but it's really not that bad. The tenderloin is pretty grimy though I admit. I wouldn't walk around there let alone live in an apartment but who knows maybe you can get a hooker? Also, if I were to ever live there I would definitely have a car.
Your life will be better after you finish.....dont let your boredom deter you from your goal. Good Luck....
Hey Lynus, do me a favor? If you ever come across a guy named Billy Milligan (II), make his life miserable for me? Forget his pain meds, do a few extra sticks, whatever you have to do. It'll give you some entertainment while you're at it.
Dude, you need to lighten up. You have concrete goals and you are obviously well on your way to achieving them. A lot of people go through their entire lives without even having any goals to achieve in the first place. You're already WAY ahead of them. Just stay focused on your goals. Turn these bored feelings you have into a new resolve to kick some academic ASS. Trust me, a few years down the road, you will laugh at how "pathetic" you thought your life was. Do what must be done....
This post is pretty harsh but there is no universe where a man putting his hair in a bun or letting it flow down to his ass is a good choice.
Solution: Go to a strip club. You'll be surrounded with other loser-ville mayors. But seriously, I know exactly how you feel. I feel sort of the same way. Except my life is pathetic now a day because of work not school. I haven't had fun since I graduated and have not seeing my college friends since then. I work something like 50 hours per week. With no time to go out and meet women or men for that matter.
As a guy who went back to school with younger people, I have to agree with Ace here, you are the creepy old guy. Who else in Lawton has shoulder length hair but you and the the old hippie that runs the head shop? Who else in town is running around hanging out at 33? The 33 year old guys at Ft. Sill are Captains and Sargent Majors. It's just a fact of life, like wrinkles, that when you reach the age that is supposed to be 'mature', life is supposed to be about work, marriage and children. Those of us who don't evolve into that lifestyle are the misfits and people are suspicious of what they don't understand. So it's not unexpected that the kids around you don't embrace you. That's why bars exist, so the misfits have a place to congregate. Sorry I don't have an uplifting suggestion, but at least if you understand the situation you won't get too down on yourself. You know who you are and why you do what you do. It's just a whole lot of adult life is boredom.
Have you been to a strip club in Oklahoma? Save your money, be a Mayor of Loserville in Houston PS I think Lynus wanted advice not a reality check that he's old.
1) 33 is not old unless you don't know any better. 2) While I'm down with long hair, this might be a source of the problem in "Lawton" from the sound of it. If you're finding people in such a town "standoffish" perhaps... just perhaps... this is part of the issue. I wouldn't suggest anyone cut their hair, but again, perhaps this is part of the issue. Sounds like you know what's up, and since you have a goal are just venting and getting back to the grindstone of reaching your goals. Good for you. Suck it up. get a pet or something. Go to the library or join a book club. Post here more. Start Sunday Evening Storytime with Lynus from Lawton. A weekly chance to vent, with interactive exchange on a weekly basis. Feel free to embellish, sounds dreadful there
despite the fact that lynus may be a sociopathological misfit , the problem lies with the choice of entering the state of ok for any reason whatsoever. i mean, what did you expect? don't they have nursing schools in texas? as for being bored in san fran, well, i don't know what to say. it's not ny , but it's certainly not lawton.
