Anyone ever had one? I think I'm going through one right now. Can't stop thinking about mistakes I've made in the last 25 years, especially poor decisions that I've made that continue to haunt me to this day. My personal life is better than it's ever been....I just wish my professional life matched it. No love with the day job or with music right now, and I think that's a first for me. Maybe I just needs somebody to whack me on the head with a 2' X 4'.
sorry about your crisis, how 'bout a swift kick in the nads? i've been without cigs for five weeks now. i'd gladly kick anyone in the nads about now. please, please, can i kick you in the nads?
Peter: So I was sitting in my cubicle today, and I realized, ever since I started working, every single day of my life has been worse than the day before it. So that means that every single day that you see me, that's on the worst day of my life. Dr. Swanson: What about today? Is today the worst day of your life? Peter: Yeah. Dr. Swanson: Wow, that's messed up.
A bit of it is that deep down, I feel that my parents see me as a failure, and it's all monetary. Don't get me wrong....I make a nice salary, own a house and drive a Lexus. My folks, however, keep wanting to compare me to the children of their friends who have been extremely successful financially....while I am just moderately successful.
I do, and it is, but deep down I know they wish I would have turned out differently, and it gnaws at me. I need to find a way to keep it from gnawing at me, and it needs to be a way that does not involve drugs or alcohol.
You know what I really want? A new day gig....one that I can get excited about. One outside of IT, perhaps.
That's pretty ****ty. There's more to life than making money. Sad if you're parents don't understand that. As long as you do, then **** 'em.
You know Tex at the end of our lives I think we're going to be a lot more concerned with how many people we've affected in a positive way and a lot less with how much money we've made. It's probably a healthy thing to realize that now and live our lives accordingly. Fewer regrets later.
Oh, they understand it, and I also try to remind them of it every chance I get. It's just that for some reason, they keep comparing me with others, and it's always the really successful "others". It sometimes makes me wonder why I ever moved back, even though I know my life is 100% better here in Houston than it was in Los Angeles.
You say your personal life is better than it's ever been, but you are very, very unhappy? Do you have a girlfriend? Do you live together? Are you married? In either case, is it a relationship of years standing? (if you have one?) Perhaps your real unhappiness is based somewhere on that level, and less on your parents or your job. (although I can easily see how a job you really don't like and find unfulfulling could produce some of the angst you're experiencing) I've seen several friends, over the years, married or not, go nuts running after a new relationship with the opposite sex, often with disasterous results that they regret later. And it's often a chick younger than they are, by at least a decade. Are you "tempted?" (RMT, I'm just tryin' not to think about my taxes. nothing personal, lol! )
Parent: Why can't you be like Peter Wong. 1500 on SAT. Went to Harvard and now a doctor. He has a big house. His wife, also a doctor. Son: Peter Wong got busted last week for drugs. Parent: Who cares about Peter Wong. Is he my child? Did I raise him?
Deck...I appreciate your post, but my girlfriend is definitely not where the real unhapiness lies. We've been dating for 7 months, and it couldn't be better. I love her dearly. She is only one year younger than me. However....your post describes my best friend to a "T"!
