Gimme Somethin' to Live For (baby bro killed himself)

I'm so sorry you've had to deal with this...please don't hesitate to ask if there's anything any one of us can do to help. I'll be praying for you and your family.

 

Very sorry to hear about this. A friend of mine killed himself on Thanksgiving this year and I know how hard the holidays can be on a lot of people. From reading your post it sounds like your brother had a lot of turmoil going on inside but didn't share it with others. It sounds like he probably felt that he needed to be strong to help you and others. I can fully understand not wanting to burden others but sometimes it helps to be able to let people know what you are going through. For you or anyone else feeling the same way don't be afraid to reach out to friends or family. If you don't feel you can talk to them try clergy and if you feel really really bad talk to a therapist.

As far as a reason to live you say it right here.

Suicide isn't so much of a selfish act as it is a self-centered act. We often can't look beyond our own pain to consider how our actions will affect those around us. Always remember that your own life has value to many others and what your absence will mean to everyone else your life touches.

Beyond the importance that your life has already you can always find more meaning in life by creating it. Go out and travel, do work that directly helps people, make art. Life is full of pain but it is also full of beauty and joy too!

 

Just wanted to check in on OP and make sure you're doing okay bro. 1luv.

 

His updates as of late.
http://bbs.clutchfans.net/showpost.php?p=8558164&postcount=53

 

Did not see that post, good to see that prayers and people help bringing him through.

 

Damn... didn't see this thread. Sorry to hear about your brother, MM. It's good to read you're finding some comfort in your theater. Remember you're lucky to have it and realize it's healing power. I've always enjoyed your posts in the past and hope to get out to a performance soon.

Stay strong.

 

Grieve, and then live your life to the fullest. In doing so, you will be representing the best of your brother and the joy he gave to others in his time on earth, as well as nourishing your own soul. All the best to you and your family.

 

How is it that I am just seeing this...very sad to see. Sorry for your loss MM.

 

Pull through my brother, we're here for you man. If you need someone to talk to, PM me bro

 

Sometimes there aren't words. "Hang in there, man" seems so trivial. :-(-

 

Just saw this. Condolences, Malcontent.

 

Major Mal,

He lives in your heart now. You gotta live his life for him.

The bible, whether you believe in it or not, is all about redemption. Criminals all have a chance in heaven. Your far better than that if only because your soul thinks you're not.

Every day is a new day. Every day is one that isn't attached to the past. Are you ready for the first day if your life?

 

I'm just seeing this. I'm sorry feels like such an understatement but I truly mean it. I'm just a stranger, I know. I hate hearing stories like this. I couldn't imagine if my brother or someone I loved did this to themselves. I certainly look at CF as a brotherhood, even though I've only met a couple of you.

Keep your loved ones close to you. You need each other now more than ever. Build on that. If you ever feel the need to vent or just talk to someone, come to the board or you can even personally PM me. It is not a bother whatsoever.

 

Praying for you, bro. My father took his life when I was nine years old, and I know it just leaves pain, and moreover, LOTS of questions, doubts, what-ifs, guilt trips, just the total PINNACLE of a ****ty feeling. Hang in there man. Just take comfort in knowing that your baby brother, in his viewpoint, is at peace. Due to some circumstances, my pain from my dad's death is probably not as bad as what you are feeling, but I can vaguely relate. Feel free to release your emotions in any healthy way necessary, remember it is okay for men to cry. And if it takes you releasing your frustrations by posting in this thread daily, then so be it. You are not alone. Clutchfans is a brotherhood. Your pain is temporary....his memory is forever.....he was loved...and that is one of the greatest blessings of all.

 

I can't even imagine. Keep your head up.

 

Keep all the loving memories with you and always treasure them.

If bad thoughts/memories of him surface, keep loving him and tell him and yourself that you've got to find a better path, avoiding the mistakes he made.

 

My condolences buddy. Like others have said, cherish the memories that you have of your brother.

Something to live for? Just live life to the fullest. Your brother would have wanted it this way.

Be more giving of yourself to those in need. Maybe do some volunteer work at a depression clinic? I think it helps if you feel that as a result of this tragedy, it's empowered you to become a better person. Therefore his death was not in vain.

 

Very sorry to hear that you are still in pain over your brother and you will probably always be in pain. Things like this always lead to wondering what if things had been different but this is the reality that we are in. The best you can do is to take that pain and all those thoughts to make your life better.

 

First off, I can't imagine what you must be going through. My thoughts and Prayers are with you and your family.

As for giving you something to live for. Your brother. That's who you should live your life for, for your loved ones, which obviously includes your brother as he seemed to be a good inspiration in your life.

There are a few more things I'd like to add. One, as others have said, live life to the fullest. Make a name for yourself, and make your brother happy of the man you are.

Second, if you're interested, help those that are in the same situation you are. So many times I've seen people say "I know how you must be feeling" in situations like this, words I choose NEVER to say unless I've literally been in that situation, and 99 percent of them have no clue because they haven't been in this situation, you have. You can tell them exactly how you are going to deal with it, and possibly save other lives in the process.

I apologize for the long post, and again my thoughts and Prayers are with you and your family.