ending a new relationship

I regret my choice of words. I suspect a lot of my blasting was because of the "who am I kidding" and the last line was immature as well. I meant it more along the lines of "I really think I'm aiming for girls that are more likely to give me the time of day (which isn't fair to them, I realize that and I struggle as you can see by this situation with that from time to time), because I feel like they can ease the feeling of rejection talking to girls in which I'm intrigued by the whole package they have to offer. I might not be a 10/10 myself, but physical attraction (to not just breasts) is an important half of the equation for me. Notice I did just say half. Breasts are nice, a good personality is nice, but for me it's gotta be about the body type as well. If I happen to get into a relationship (long-term) that ends up with a possible marriage one day, I don't want to wait until that day to say to myself "Oh man, you really screwed up by taking her on a 5-7 year ride".

As far as how I handled it, it should have been done better... but like I said there are times where I do things because I feel so low about myself.

 

We parted ways last night on good terms. Mods can close this thread if they like. Or y'all can keep flaming me. I won't be visiting it anymore.

 

I'm not going to type text for text and minute by minute on the phone, but...

Here's the CliffNotes:

She says that she really appreciated me being honest with her. I told her that I just don't think I can have a relationship in my life when I've barely got my stuff together with school, neck pain, and depression right now. She apparently talked to a good girlfriend in between and the friend said my honesty was the difference between a boy and a man (meaning "I'M A MAN, I'M 40!"). I had to unfortunately use the neck pain and depression card (which ARE legitimate excuses, believe it) instead of the real reason. She wanted to know if I wanted to hang out again and that there would be certain boundaries and how would I want her to ask if we hung out. I told her like friends hang out, normal hanging. I also told her less text messaging (she was asking what she could do to not make it seem like we were gf/bf and I was polite about it, so for those preparing the flame throwers... easy) would make things easier.

Now I don't know how friends go, I personally don't believe it works out a lot of the time. Yet, I'll give it a shot and we'll see how it goes. She was there for me when I was confiding in her about all that was going on in my life and if things aren't too awkward, we'll remain friends.