I really think you need to someone professional. A psychiatrist. I don't think you are crazy, but you definitely need that someone to listen to you in person and correctly consult you. Here are my two cents: 1. Making a fake identity do pushed the whole situation over the edge. You really shouldn't have done that. 2. Going crazy over someone whom you've never met is not worth it. I've done it before, I was in a relationship with a girl whom I've never met (she was a friend of friend's) for a year. We met up after a year, but it didn't work out because we didn't have that spark and it was just awkward. My advice is that, definitely go over to her and at least meet up. Round-trip ticket to California should not be over $300, and even though I don't know how much you make or anything, but you should be able to save up that much in a couple of months. It will be worth it. If it does work out and she's the love of your life, then the trip is worth it. If it doesn't work out, at least you have closure and you can move on. Seriously, meet up with her. 3. Also, be aware of single mothers (like the other thread) Good luck dude
None of us care. The bottom line is you just wasted the past 5 years of your life on a married chick that still doesn't want to meet you after she's divorced. It is over, and you probably would be with a significant someone else if you hadn't obsessed over this one. Move on.
ya know this thread just flatout fails. If the OP intended on bbs notoriety, it will be in the Big Book of BBS Fail Let me tell you how bad the fail is in here(both the OP and the replies)....it isnt even worth one of my many fail pics. if he is for real......*shivers*
you know your crossing the boundaries when you change profiles just to talk to the girl man. strange. LET IT GO MAN.
I understand what you're saying. I know i've damaged myself through this whole time. I've grown obsessed. I fell. There might be no turning around and im headed lower and lower if i can't fix this. I didnt mean to sound creepy when i said all i wanted was something beautiful for her. I let things get out of hand. What i set out to do was be there for her emotionally like i promised her i would. In the beginning, all my messages were just about wishing shes okay and that im always thinking of her and i know shes listening. Over time, i became selfish and let my feelings take over, writing things like how much i care for her and she shouldn't be with her husband anymore. I *****ed up. And then this whole thing with the fake profile. I let her down once again. Perhaps for the last time. BUT i can make her happy. I know i can, and she can make me happy again too. Im in some darkness and i can't get out, and if i have to look crazy to get through, i will find her. And i will apologize for the monster i've become and from there, she can make the choice, and i will be happy for her no matter what that choice may be.
I dont even know where to begin on this one... Your temper is obviously an issue...and the discharge is probably due to something significant. So, you obviously need to re-evaluate your actions and possibly get help in that department. Dont see "getting help" as a bad thing. Everyone can use someone to talk to. Going 5 years and not meeting her? Im sure it just seems very coincidental that every time you guys plan to meet up, something happens that ruins it. Trust me, that kind of coincidence doesnt happen that often for that time of length. She may tell you she wants to see you, but in actuality, it seems like she just needs that emotional support...and she can get it by being miles and miles away. She fell in love with your fake profile. She obviously just needs someone there, even if its from a distance. Falling in love with a girl and obsessing over her for 5 years is not possible when you are regularly banging chicks. It just doesnt compute. In the end, this is a bad situation for everyone involved. I think you need to just stop talking to her...dont write her goodbye. Just leave. In the meantime, I'd recommend talking to a professional just to have someone to talk to and get advice from. Maybe you could also work on that temper because it seems to repeatedly get you into trouble.
Why does everyone think im making this up? I opened up b/c i felt i needed to. Its real. She's lost and scared and i made it my goal to find her and save her wether or not i was the one for her. I ended up losing myself, but i have the strength to stand again and carry on. I was discharged. General (Under Honorable Conditions) from the United States Marine Corps and it does involve her. That's all i will say about that.
That's probably the only kind of "job" the OP will be getting any time soon, ya savvy? Maybe that's part of the problem. Saturday was Steak and BJ Day and the OP was too busy working on his fake myspace profile to partake.
I refuse to believe this story could be real. If it is I am forced to believe you are locked in your parents basement playing WoW like a job, and only go outside for midnight Jack in the Box runs. If you two wanted to meet up that badly it would have happened a LONG time ago. Put down the lightsaber and go out and have a good time with all the chicks you are supposedly banging.
Why does everyone think she fell for the fake profile??? Did i word it wrong? I meant i realized it was getting too far b/c i realized it was invading her privacy and it was wrong of me. So i confessed. We talked b/c i knew so much about her and she thought this dude and her had so much in common when in fact it was just me that knew her. She would say stuff like "wow you know me so well and i feel so comfortable talking to you" We never talked about real personal stuff. Shes the one that would ask me personal questions about what i thought about love and everything. After i answered all her questions. She was like "this can't be real, all your answers are exactly like i would answer. She couldn't stop talking about my personality and i had her laughing nonstop. She thanked me b/c she needed to laugh and she said it helped her. So i can't be as sorry as everyone thinks i should. I had to stop when she said she would laugh to herself sometime through out the day thinking about our conversations and then the last time we spoke, she finally started to bring up his looks and get flirty. So i decided it was too much.
It's real and i go out. But, i admit i haven't gone out in months since i stopped seeing the girl i was seeing, everyone is wondering where i've been. But i do go out a lot.
So you were kicked out of the Marines at least in part (if not in total), due to something involving a girl you had never met? And you don't see a problem?
