hell no, shes told me shes thought of it sometimes. And i went off on her and how terrible that is. My mother tried to OD on pills in front of me and my brother when we were kids several times. I had sit and watch her be carried away in a stretcher and i knew i would never put that hurt on the people that love me. Im not some super emo loser. My care for her and her daughter is real. I've watched her daughter grow from a lil beautiful infant to a 5 year old beautiful girl. She looks so happy in every picture. Reminds me of my sister who can't even speak or run or play like regular kids. Shes now 18 and looks like she's 6 and has the mind of a 3 year old. So no. I won't kill myself.
Uh, you just said it. She fell for it and you told her it was you. You're crazy. Nothing will change your mind. So just go ahead and keep stalking her.
On a serious note, I think you really need to go talk to a professional about more then just your issues with this lady.
What's crazy is all this online crap. Are you a stalker? No, from the amount of it I could read without losing my lunch, you've never actually met. Is that right? This amount of attachment between people who've never met is unnatural, in my personal opinion. So, to answer... are you a stalker? I don't think this qualifies. That doesn't excuse the ridiculous nature of the would be relationship and the ongoing silliness that appears to have occurred. Let it go. It sounds like you're both just off-kilter enough to not be good for each other. Nothing wrong with that, but I'd say moving on would be healthy for both of you.
Was it unnatural before so much technology that people would fall in love only through letters way back? Especially durin the civil war, and both world wars?
So you were involuntarily discharged with a personality disorder? Isn't that what a lot of folks replying in this thread have hit upon?
Ya why don't you ask a recruiter what personality disorder involves. Make him get the book and read the description. I got in several fights and went UA for 5 days to party on the beach. No meds required. FIGHTING. Everyone fights. And they were stupid to think they were gonna put their hands on me and i wouldn't ***** them up. You think the Army would take me if i took medication for a disorder?
We've masturbated together over phone. But it was beautiful. Whatever Lady.Di is right, im not changing my mind b/c of yall. Im going to calll her tonight and tell her im sorry for what i let this become and that time is running out and if she doesn't want to see me next month and then she never will. I already told her id give her a call while i was in town looking around for an apartment. If she doesn't then i will wish her happiness and let her truly go. I am going to join the National Guard, finish school, work hard. And meet new people in a new setting. I need a fresh start anyway and have been wanted to move and all my friends know that anyway. I'm also looking into Phoenix.
Originally you said your discharge had to do with this girl and now you say it has to do with SEVERAL fights and an unauthorized absence of 5 days so you could "party on the beach". How did events seemingly unrelated to her cause her to be the reason for your discharge?
Its kind of tough to tell if this is a troll job or not. I mean, the original post sounded realistic at parts, and less realistic at others. If you're not a troll you're ridiculous
dude please.....this is the CF.NET HANGOUT, if it is a interwebs meme, it makes it here toot-sweet. http://bbs.clutchfans.net/showthread.php?t=125484 courtesy of the all-powerful thadeus.
You say you care about her, but if you are, the way you're going at things is for all the wrong reasons. You can't build relationships upon lies. You can't build relationships upon lies. You can't build relationships upon lies. You can't justify ****ed up things by saying it makes her feel better. Do you know how that sounds? I wouldn't trust you with someone else's kid. After 5 years, I think you could take it upon YOURSELF to meet her face to face, but you probably won't until you've finally burned all of your chances to be with her. That lone push of desperation will probably set you off since you can't seem to shake her off. After all this time, I bet she was in a similar state of "not ruining a good thing" until your bouts of rage pushed her away from anything serious. Yeah, you were frustrated. I would be too after 5 years, but were you more angry at her or yourself? Even if she does like the desperation fueled meeting, you're on a course to a dysfunctional relationship. If you love her, do you really want that? Or is it not love and something else. It could be vanity, pride, obsession, obligation, or even a bad habit accumulated over the years. This is harsh for me to say it, but I'm not trying to be judgmental. There seems to be a lot of the story missing, but most of all, I think you need to find a qualified professional to work out 1) why you have to lie and deceive someone you claim to love, 2) managing your anger around people you claim to love, 3) believing and accepting the possibility of a genuine and loving relationship you claim you're ready to have (instead of having **** buddies and persistent or enduring online infatuations), 4) any other quirk you're hiding in the thread because of the recent dogpile. Getting counseling is not a form of weakness as much as hiring a carpenter to do some house repair. Just because you care for her doesn't mean the endgame is to be with her. Something to think about. It boils down to what your wants are that are independent of that chick. PS. your attitude of her sounds like pity and condescension.
lol you're ****in' crazy man .. get a life .. u will never get this woman you look so desesperated you don't even have a chance. Seriously, I've pity for you. Leave america
