Snow If I go out in the morning snow in my pajamas and my winter coat and take from the house our darker thoughts, and take away the memory of loss, and if I drop them into the snow... will we never find them anymore? To see him, to see him happy. To see him, to see him happy. In the same field where we have stood to see our brother fly away in spring in a light blue and silver plane, now the snow has covered everything. I think we will be made clean like the snow. I think we will become new like the snow. To see him, to see him happy. To see him, to see him happy. Some winters are harder than others. We are going to take our cameras and look through at black trees with empty arms and sled tracks wandering, as we are. To see him, to see him happy. To see him, to see him happy. It's been three years grandpa. I have broken open, b/c I miss you so so much. I know you are with me... but I'm the selfish tangible type. Gretel knows and has come to me to pay her respects. She is bending over punching me in the face with the top of her head. You never met Stella, but she knows there's something odd going on. She's in my lap, asking what this thing is that hides our friends and makes her dad meow this weird meow. Angela faces this now. We've gone from knowing her grandmother had lost weight to finding out that it's the bad thing, and that it's inoperable. I drove her to the airport this morning. In a matter of weeks grandpa, I'll be visiting. I wish it were better circumstances. I wish it were much better circumstances.
Thanks Behad. Many of us have confronted this issue. I would consider it an honor if, if you wish, you guys choose to share your losses and respects here. Consider it a tribute thread... not just for my grandfather, but for all of our friends and relatives we've lost.
You want to hear something unusual? I have yet to lose any close family members. Two of my grandparents died before I was born, and the other two passed after very long and full lives. Unfortunately, I was never really close to them. Both my parents, my wifes parents, all my brothers and sisters and in-laws are all still here. My wife and I have been very blessed. That is why I simply made a blank post, to acknowledge the respect you have for your love ones no longer with us.
My dad passed away on June 28th in Houston. I think about him innumerable times EVERY DAY. This morning I found a picture of him that had fallen behind my desk. It shows him and my mom sitting with my two oldest children some dozen years ago when his face was not gaunt and his gaze not vacant. If you still have your loved ones.... LOVE THEM.
