love stinks like poop! ------------------ i am my own worst enemy [This message has been edited by DiSeAsEd MoNkEy (edited May 21, 2001).]
I handled my "first love" really horribly. I fell hard for this cheerleader, really went after her (getting friends to put me in situations to talk to her, see her, etc), chased her for 3 months (not crazy-like though), finally got her... then it became hell! After dating for about 2 months I realized she was NOT the person I should be seeing. She was cute and charming, but she was also insipid, scheming, and petty. She lured me away from my closest friends into her circle, and my life was really miserable... I just felt out of place completely. I would break up with her, then she would call me crying, and I'd ask her back out. Happened several times... it took me almost a year to sever it completely. My advice: think very hard about it for a couple days, then do what is best for your happiness, healthy, and sanity and stick wiht your decision. Vascillating will only cause pain. I made it worse for both me and her by not standing by my conviction. Hang in their buddy, it's a tough situation. ------------------ A few years back on the Senate floor... Phil Gramm: "If Democrats could, they'd tax the air we breathe." Ted Kennedy (jumping up): "By God, why didn't I think of that sooner!" Boston College - NCAA Hockey National Champions 2001 [This message has been edited by haven (edited May 21, 2001).]
I can definitely relate to what you are going through. I broke up with my girlfriend under really bad conditions. She was my first love, and I dated her for 2 and a half years. I know that I put up with alot. I compromised alot of my feelings and beliefs, just for the sake of being with her, and thinking that I would never love anyone like I loved her. Its a tough situation. I guess what I learned through this whole ordeal, is that you have to make yourself happy first. Before I met her I was happy with who I was, in a band, hanging with friends, being myself. When we started dating, things changed. Life is about compromise, but I feel that I let too much of myself go when I dated her. And in turn, my attitude changed, and my friends started to fade. I know it isnt easy, and it sounds cliche, but you have to do what is best for you. Life is way too short to be unhappy.
omg that is so me! except i was with a dude, im barely about to be 17 and i wasted a whole year followed by another year off and on with a terrible person. atleast i learned the true meaning of "psycho" i put up with a lot of stuff i dont think i should have been forced to. domestic violence is gross, and it happening to a lil girl is even worse. i loved that dude more then anything, but he tore me and my world apart. i still love myself, but now hes made it hard for me to love and trust other ppl. ------------------ i am my own worst enemy [This message has been edited by DiSeAsEd MoNkEy (edited May 21, 2001).]
just keep on trying. You've got to miss a few shots to hit a few game winners. It's the same old story all over again. I'm not even sure where my first love is, but I'm glad I'm not with her. ------------------ humble, but hungry.
Before my current girlfriend, I had three serious relationships. My first one lasted from the summer before my junior year to the first month of my senior year. I knew I wasn't in love, but I really liked her. However, I think I stayed in the relationship because of the fact that for 8 months, I lived in different states. She was my link back to Katy since I was miserable, and I didn't really feel comfortable calling my buddies every freakin' day. My second lasted from Christmas my senior year to Christmas my sophomore year in college. I definitely thought I was in love. We lived in the same dorm and I wanted to live together when we moved out. However, I was always looking for something more, even though I never knew what it necessarily was. When we broke up, I thought it was the end of the world, even though it was me who ended it. My third relationship lasted from March of my sophomore year in college to last May, over three years. I was never too terribly happy in that relationship, yet I was never too terribly unhappy either. Again, I thought I was in love, yet I kept thinking about my last girlfriend. So, then I thought I was in love with her too. Well, it ended, and I was a wreck for six months. Even though I wanted to end it and didn't have the nads to do it, I couldn't eat or sleep for awhile. I finally came to the conclusion that it didn't end on my terms, it ended on hers. Yet I still thought I loved her at one point. And the second one. Well in November, I met my current girlfriend. I know now I was never in love with my previous girlfriends. I never really wanted to get married and I never really wanted to have kids. Despite my brief period of wanting to move in with my second girlfriend, I never wanted to live with anyone. That's all changed. It's an amazing feeling that I've never felt before. I want to be with her all the time, and we never get sick of each other. I really want to marry this girl, and this is knowing stuff about her past that would normally send me running (it has in the past). So, why am I telling you all this? Don't get bummed out too much when something is over. You'll meet the one you're supposed to be with, it'll happen. And when it does, you'll feel like an ass for ever worrying about it before. ------------------ www.swirve.com "Pre-born, you're fine, pre-school, you're f*****."-George Carlin
My first love was a young lady (well, young at the time, she's 30 now) by the name of Kelly. We were in the same World History class in the 10th grade (taught by Coach Joe Bain at Amarillo High School). She sat behind me in class, and one day she reached up and started playing with my hair (I had long hair at the time) for some reason. When she did that, I turned around and we started talking. One thing led to another, and we started dating (officially starting on September 20, 1986). We were together until the next summer when her father (who worked for Santa Fe Railroad. To this day, I hate Santa Fe - now Burlington Northern/Santa Fe - Railroad) got transferred to Topeka, Kansas. We didn't keep in touch once she left, and I had a tough time the next year without her (especially since so many people would come up to me and ask where Kelly was. It was odd for them to not see us together). I'd date other women (well, girls at the time), but it was never the same. I never made the same connection with anyone else (including the woman I married after high school). Kelly and I almost managed to find each other again at one point. When we were 20, she called out of the blue. She had just divorced her first husband and she had never forgotten about me. Unfortunately (or fortunately depending on how you look at it), I had just gotten back together with my then-wife after we had temporarily split up (I was really unable to be alone at that point in my life. Not that way any more), so Kelly and I were unable to make a connection. By the time my marriage finally broke up (about a year or so later), Kelly had already found someone else and was preparing to marry him (His name is Jeff, though it's not the Jeff from here). So now she's married and has two kids and is living in Kansas City or someplace, and I've never been able to find anyone with whom I shared the same connection since. ------------------ Houston Sports Board Film Dallas.com AntiBud.com
My first love was the Houston Rockets , its been a long relationship with many ups and downs . We have endured many hard times , like the Scottie Pippen thing that I my never forgive . We've discussed long term commitment , We got 2 rings a few years back but we haven't done anything since . We've talked about rings but there is only interest on my part . I was obsessed about us winning the lottery but that didnt pan out either . Some day I hope we'll win it all but for now I'm content to just "dream" of happier times . ------------------ The Rocket Saint ST.eve Francis of a CC.net
just remember: no matter how good she looks someone somewhere is tired of her sh*t ------------------ "no matter how good she looks someone... somewhere..is tired of her sh*t"
That was exactly what I was thinking but aparently you beat me to it. Thats ok you wrote about my 1st love better then I could have. ------------------ ~John~ Help keep the obsessed thread alive post the reasons why you are an obsessed Rockets fan by clicking here
so are you still in love with the Rockets ? I've seen you flirting (blatantly) with a certain football team out west ?!?!?!?!? ------------------ "norm, would you like to buy an indian scalp ? This deal isn't gonna make or break me Norm, so don't jerk me around." Harry Carey "Norm, if I had a mohawk scalp, I wouldn't be sitting here talking to you."
Mr paige. Damn that story is wonderful and sad. Great story. That's the good stuff. I'm not kidding. You should appreciate that you've got that stuff wrapped up inside of you. ------------------ humble, but hungry.
I would deeply love the Raiders but Im afraid I would get sued . They are more like my family, ruthless and you can't escape them . ------------------ The Rocket Saint ST.eve Francis of a CC.net
it went from chic talk to basketball. yall are such dudes!=) ------------------ i am my own worst enemy
Hey we can think of over 1000 ways that we are obsessed fans, of course our 1st and only love is the Rockets ------------------ ~John~ Help keep the obsessed thread alive post the reasons why you are an obsessed Rockets fan by clicking here
i love my name! just makes ya wanna go buy a monkey smuggled in from some dirty country, doesnt it? i like to think of my disease as the "special" part of me=) ------------------ i am my own worst enemy [This message has been edited by DiSeAsEd MoNkEy (edited May 22, 2001).]
my first love worked for my mom. She was 24 and I was 18. I was in love with her since I was 14. Well, long story short, we had a 3 year relationship but she wasn't the person I thought she was. I miss her sometimes, but I'm glad we broke up, but I'm also glad to have had the experience. Lots of good and bad times but it was a learning experience. I say that, but I still make a ton of mistakes in relationships..... ------------------ "norm, would you like to buy an indian scalp ? This deal isn't gonna make or break me Norm, so don't jerk me around." Harry Carey "Norm, if I had a mohawk scalp, I wouldn't be sitting here talking to you."
