They don't live for hundreds of years with Blade around, we don't live for hundreds of years period so they need to get this going... Blade is already black, what's taking so long......
I've always had a background level of discomfort with aging and dying. The kind that made my birthdays mildly somber, quiet affairs. Especially the 40th. Then a good friend of mine died unexpectedly. He was young, too young. 33. He was basically the little brother I never had. He had just gotten married and was planning on starting a family. Then one day while playing pick-up soccer he fell over dead. It shook me to my core. Now I'm not just anxious about dying, I actively fear it. My wife, for all her better qualities, is a very co-dependent person and would absolutely struggle to move forward. My kids are also young, and I know that my presence is beyond critical to them right now. I have nightmares about not seeing my son graduate, or my daughter get married, or having grandkids of my own. My parents are also on their way out and I hate knowing there is nothing I can do to stop it or prepare myself for it. I wish I had something more uplifting to say, but I don't. I'm scared, guys.
100 percent - avoiding smoking and avoiding sugar is huge - heck, even just dropping consuming soda does so much
as Waren Zevon sang, "I'm too old to die young, and too young to die now." alas, he was wrong on the latter point.
It makes me want to run out the house screaming for the most part, but I don’t, I just grit my teeth, let a tear flow down my cheek, and check the latest D&D thread.
At your age that sounds like some form of early mid-life crisis. Death is inevitable and it can happen at any time but you shouldn't be focused on it at that age. That said I too have had this enter my mind more and more recently - though I'm old and recently retired. I know death is getting closer each day. I've had a great life and I'm ready to go (I'm born-again Christian) but yet death still enters my mind more frequently since I've retired. Maybe because it's the next and final milestone. The thought of this all going to end soon for me makes me reflect more and more on my past. I've tracked down some old time friends to thank then for bring me back in line (pre Christian days) as my life could have ended up completely different if it weren't for their friendship. Tell those who loved and helped you along the way Thanks because those are your true friends. Then focus on the day at hand. Sometimes we focus on the past (can't change) or future (may not even happen) too much and miss out on how good today is.
How funny, I read that article yesterday and I always wonder about these experiences, are they real, it is their subconscious playing tricks on them or is it real, you hear about people seeing relatives, seeing "the light"...............I personally believe in a higher power and there is life after death partly because I NEED to believe we get more time after were done here. If we're just going to be worm food what was the point?
You know, it's nothing very special. Try to be nice to people, avoid eating fat, read a good book every now and then, get some walking in, and try and live together in peace and harmony with people of all creeds and nations.
You hitting that mid life crisis hard huh? Dont worry, get yourself a motorcycle and you'll be all better.
I'll turn 40 next year.... and honestly I don't think about it too much. Maybe I'll hit a mid life crisis when I actually feel old. I've kept in relatively good shape in terms of diet and exercise, except el chronico is a vice of mine. No kids and never married but girlfriends throughout my life (flex) and I don't feel like I'm missing out with kids but I do want to get married. I do feel myself getting pulled to more volunteering and acts of service as I get older which feels like it can satisfy a "legacy" itch. My current situation seems a bit like Theo's cousin in the awesome dystopian scifi movie, Children of Men. The world is collapsing:
Jeeps. It's dripped up jeeps now because people are too fat for motorcycles. Motorcycles are for boomers.
