They don't live for hundreds of years with Blade around, we don't live for hundreds of years period so they need to get this going... Blade is already black, what's taking so long......
I've always had a background level of discomfort with aging and dying. The kind that made my birthdays mildly somber, quiet affairs. Especially the 40th. Then a good friend of mine died unexpectedly. He was young, too young. 33. He was basically the little brother I never had. He had just gotten married and was planning on starting a family. Then one day while playing pick-up soccer he fell over dead. It shook me to my core. Now I'm not just anxious about dying, I actively fear it. My wife, for all her better qualities, is a very co-dependent person and would absolutely struggle to move forward. My kids are also young, and I know that my presence is beyond critical to them right now. I have nightmares about not seeing my son graduate, or my daughter get married, or having grandkids of my own. My parents are also on their way out and I hate knowing there is nothing I can do to stop it or prepare myself for it. I wish I had something more uplifting to say, but I don't. I'm scared, guys.
100 percent - avoiding smoking and avoiding sugar is huge - heck, even just dropping consuming soda does so much
as Waren Zevon sang, "I'm too old to die young, and too young to die now." alas, he was wrong on the latter point.
It makes me want to run out the house screaming for the most part, but I don’t, I just grit my teeth, let a tear flow down my cheek, and check the latest D&D thread.
