I feel really distruaght, embarrased, hurt, angry, sad, confused...... I can honestly say that my heart is hurt deeply. I cannot believe that this happened.........I just dont know what to do. I know what the right thing to do is, but will I do it?? I love her. I know this for a fact. She glows in my eyes. She surrounds me. Looking at her last night, and losing myself in her beauty, and then her turning around and going off on me like that. I just dont know what I feel inside. Maybe to describe it would be like a son punching their mother, or someone denying a baby love for any particular reason. A feeling of deep rooted confusion, and saying to myself "how could she do this to me?" I am just praying, and I have a feeling this will bring me close to God.
She just needs commitment. If you marry her, her behavior will change overnight. Or, she just needs commitment.
She certainly won't change if she suffers no repercussion for her behavior. Even if you forgive and forget in the end, you need to take a serious stand to let her know that behavior is not acceptable. I would start by breaking it off. Then you can either progress to a reconciliation or a restraining order.
She had been given the commitment in August with my engagement ring. I was working on getting her put on my insurance here at work. Our wedding date had been scheduled, and money had been put down on a church. The balls was rolling...... Every night we shared, I would watch her sleep. Lose myself in the way her face looked while I was next to her, **** many nights I wouldnt fall asleep at all because I just couldnt believe she was right next to me. Getting up and going to work would be hard everyday, and I would embrace her and tell her she was on my mind all day. I tried so hard to be her hero when she needed one, her shoulder to cry on when things were going bad, she even told me that not only was I her lover, but I was also her best friend. Do I love her? Yes absolutely.....I would be crazy to say otherwise. Thats why this is so hard to soak in. I have been cheated on in the past, and I know how hard it felt. I was faithful to her, and never strayed....never wanted to. Thats the first time ever I could say that about any woman. Sorry to ramble on, just upset
Has she ever been physical with you before in an arguement or was this a side of her you never knew she could have?
Speaking as a former counselor, it sounds as though you are in a relationship with a woman who has serious issues: trauma, poor self-esteem, jealousy, anger/rage. She needs some serious counseling edit: THERAPY and were I you, I would insist on that before pursuing any further relationship. This has happened before, man. Open your eyes. You....future children.... Do you really want this for yourself? You can't save anyone; only they can save themselves.
Beauty Intelligence Sanity With women, the best you can hope for is two out of three....sometimes, you only get one.
I was being sarcastic. She needs commitment to a psychiatric ward. My true advice is that you need to run away as fast as you can and be glad that you learned she is a psycho before entering legal entanglement.
Regardless, this ain't the first time you've brought up these issues with this girl. I believe you were singing the same song about a year ago with her. This relationship is not working.
Dude, you shouldn't marry a woman like that. Like many have said, she has serious issues and you don't need someone like that in your life. Just remember, although it hurts right now, the pain will eventually go away. No pain last forever. So let time take it's course.
See Ted Bundy, Ted Kaczynski, et al. Perhaps this theory isn't endemic to only women... no, no, i'm sure it must be.
the other part of this paragraph is fine.. but this.. good lord.. might I add.. she's certaintly not going to view you as much of a "hero" or "shoulder to cry on".. or if she has.. pretty much diminish it in memory.. if you can't display/muster greater strength as a man.. than this.. not to mention permitting her to strike you so unreasonably.. and irrationally.. and in public.. terrible..
I was going to make a snarky comment but I feel for you man.. My advice is if you really love her and want to marry her you need to get her some counselling and both of you should attend couples counseling.
