days ago, can't get it out of my mind. didn't cause an accident nor was it illegal, just poor judgment, and could have easily resulted in the death of me and a passenger, and who knows who else on the highway. basically i put my life and my passengers in the hands of an oncoming 18-wheeler. i typically would consider myself a pretty good driver, and am just disappointed in myself and shaken up that i made such a lousy judgment on the road, and just can't stop thinking about it. any suggestions? i can usually get over crap, but this is constantly on my mind since it happened. it's like i'm constantly searching for peace of mind and trying to convince myself that a wreck was an unlikely result from doing what i did.
Jeez. It's like DocRocket trying to tell a story. Too cryptic for my tastes. Everybody's gonna be asking what happened. :smh:
i'm guessing it was small road, and he overtake a slow car and an 18 wheeler was coming? or either he fell asleep on the wheel and the car was going towards the other side of traffic. anywho we all makes mistakes, just learn from it and never to do the same thing again.
sorry, didn't mean to be cryptic...didn't think the details were important, since me fcking up really isn't in question, but... basically i was in the wrong lane on the highway and was about to be forced into exiting, so instead i slowed down to try and switch into the correct lane (never should have done that in the first place, obviously), but was running out of space, ended up basically parked in the median, and the moment i judged to be the correct one to attempt to get back up to speed and move back onto the highway, was when an 18 wheeler was maybe 100 yds away and coming at 70+ mph. he started honking the second he saw me move in and didn't stop for a good 30 seconds after. no alcohol, cell phones, distractions involved, just lousy effing judgment.
Well, we all make mistakes. Just be thankful nothing bad happened. I got in a stupid accident a few months ago, and it shook me up pretty good for a while. Eventually I got over it and moved on. You should be fine.
**** happens, we all make mistakes in judgement. Your awareness of it should make you a better driver in the future. Lesson learned.
I'm sure he was def trying to slow down but if he had a load he can't just jam on the breaks. Your good bro just learn and live.
i feel grateful towards him. i feel bad for my passenger. i don't feel bad for myself. i'm disappointed in myself. i guess i can see where wanting to quit constantly thinking about this is in a way a form of feeling bad for myself though.
"Whenever I'm about to do something, I think: would an idiot do that? And if they would, I do not do that thing."
One time I almost flipped a car with 3 other passengers in it. Everyone was screaming and when we regained control they started yelling at me, but due to the sudden rush of adrenaline I couldn't stop laughing. That feeling was new to me then and hasn't happened since. This was about 5 years ago. I am possibly the only person to drive on only two wheels of a PT Cruiser and live to tell about it. I never really felt bad about it though. That night we were all having a good time in New Orleans, so that probably helped me get over it.
I honestly can't really discern what percentage of it is me feeling bad about it, what percentage is the "i should be dead" feeling lingering, and what percentage is the uneasiness brought on by the sudden realization that I don't have the airtight judgment that I may have thought I did. Either way, it's done ****ed me up a bit. Maybe I'll go see a shrink if I can't shake it off. Thanks for the responses though, everybody.
