Relapsed after 5 days, back to the beginning. All last night I was having these erotic dreams and by the time I woke up my johnson was on fire. I think I need to buy a cold compress for these times.
Han Solo is the weakest participant in the history of NoFap. I'm still free of fap since 2nd week of Dec. and it feels good.
I feel good right now though. I have been going down to zero again pretty quickly, but it's not with p*rn. This morning-i thought of a beautiful girl i know. Dreamed of her being my wife and making love to her. 5 minutes ago, i fapped to the best ass thread of Elizabeth Loaiza. Dat Ass was asking for it. I'm kind of glad i was able to go HAM just from a half naked girl. Usually i used to require hardcore p*rn and then recently crazy ass p*rn.
After looking to see what all the fuss was about, I now understand your relapse. Luckily I am at work. But DAMN!
Yet all those things require currency. Anyway, i don't think i can make it tonight. Been really getting into tanned white girls. Not that nasty fake ****, but the sexy natural dark white girls or hispanic with majority Caucasian traits. Someone just like Elizabeth Loaiza. Something about that tan with the sun kissing off of it and you can see the cute lil light fuzz everywhere and you just wanna bite and lick and suck all of that meat and flesh.
Picture 1 skydiving: Requires money, but doable. One time thing and then what? Pic 2 sports: We live in Houston. We can cheer all we want, but in the end we are all pessimists because of what the city has given us. I often wonder what it would be like to be born in a big sports city that always wins and how much happier and free of stress they are. Money required to enjoy either way. Pic 3: Everyone gets tired of ****ing the same girl. The hottest require money. Pic 4: Travel. Lots of money. Pic 5: Concerts. Money and i never understood concerts anyway. i can jam it at home in great quality. Pic 6. Waterpark: Money. What about in the winter? Pic 7: Food. Money. Houston is one of the fattest cities. It's clearly not working. Pic 8: Same thing as concert. You listen to music whenever you want, big whoop. Pic 9: Movies: My favorite pass time. Dream would be to make my own. Money. Pic 10: Asians are everywhere to be made fun of, but that gets tiring. Pic 11: Reading. That's not fun. Pic 12: Internet. Leads to p*rn. Pic 13: Vandalism. Jail time. Money. Pic 14: Babies. Sweet ups are only so memorable because of how many downs there are with raising children. LOTS of money. Pic 15: Dancing. For women. Men who dance are pretty gay looking. Pic 16: Sculpting. Requires certain artistic skill that probably can't be obtained no matter how much you practice. Pic 17: DJ. Who really wants to be a Dj? Refer to Pic 10. Pic 18: Drawing. Same as Pic 16. Pic 19: Religion. Enemies of reason. Pic 20: Pets: They stink. Money. Pic 21: Exotic car: Big time monay. Pic 22: Eye contact. Wtf do i do with it. Pic 23: beach. Short Vacation. lots of Money to enjoy full time. Pic 24: Jellyfish? Wtf? Pic 25: Indians. They reek of curry. Pic 26-31: Travel meeting new people around the world. MONEY. So depressing. I think i'll go fap now.
You remind me of this dude in highschool who was super depressing wherever he went, but hung out with me and my friends even though we didn't like him. Just a total loser. Got fired from the job I helped him get. Lends money from his mom to buy everything, including Pokemon cards. Laughs at the one guy in school who had it worse than him. Faked his own suicide once just to get sympathy attention. ...Don't be that guy Han, you're better than that
Eh i was one of the popular kids in high school. I only became depressed after a certain period in my life. The only reason i can show anything i want on the boards is because i can't in front of friends. No one wants to be that depressing debbie downer in real life. So i'll be him here. You guys are special. None of my friends have any idea just how terrible and lonely i feel inside. It would be too weird. It's better if we just get drunk and laugh as we always do even if they could help. I'll never be back to normal inside until i find purpose again. Till then, i guess ill lube with my tears. Fap away gentlemen. YOLO?
