So her mom and sister is inviting me to go on a out of state vacation with them on HER birthday. The guy who probably said I should just get on with it because I'm not listening to the guys posting in this thread might be right... I am strongly considering this. You guys telling me to just simply man up and stop being a ****y... it's not that easy. I loved this girl with all my heart and it started out so great. Fine, if i go back to this, i'm not gonna expect that she'll have changed. In fact i'm strongly considering what she wanted right in the middle of the relationship when it was going sour... a non committed relationship. There's nothing wrong with that right? Free sex and the freedom to go out with other girls? Sure, I had feelings for her before.. but i'm willing to let that go i guess.
I hate to say this, but she did not reciprocate the same feelings as you. She didn't love you with all of her heart, and typically that's called unrequited love. It might have just been a transgression of hers, maybe she learned from her mistake, or she was just not that into you.
She did... in the beginning.. it's gone.. and I have accepted that.. now I am willing to just have a non committed relationship with her.
Dude, you are not ABLE to have a non-committed relationship with her. You have admitted you can't get over her. You think once you are with her that's going to somehow change? You will fully invest yourself and she will not care, and she will sleep with other guys and you will be six more months further gone than you are now. I will make a tipjar bet with you right now that this NEVER materializes as a healthy relationship. As another poster said, there are some women you NEVER fully get over - but you come to terms with the fact that the relationship didn't work. And once you find another one, you'll be amazed at how this one never crosses your mind anymore. And NOBODY believes the Jessica Alba comment without pictures. NOBODY.
Get with one of her friends, take pictures and post them on facebook. Or if her sister is texting you go that route.