heart breaking peace to all of the Clutchfans family it is like losing a brother, it hurts praying for all
This is so telling, so powerful. I wish I had known him like so many on this bbs. I think it is worth it though for everyone to post their thoughts, because we are all connected. I'm saddened that he could not find a way past the pain he felt. After reading some posts about him and by him, it was joyous to me to find he shared a love of music. RIP - even though I didn't know you, you are my brother.
The song itself is pretty touching, but knowing LL's feelings and history... this is really depressing. RIP LL, prayers for the family and kids.
He booked shows at The Mink (where I work). One of the only Clutchfans that knew and really cared about his local music scene. His heart was big enough to share and contribute to all the bands he booked for and people he booked with that he will live on with all of us. We lost one of the good guys.
Wow. That was incredibly sad/depressing. I feel so bad for Rhien and all of the people affected by this. I can't help but wonder if there was something that someone could've said that might have made a difference so that this thread wouldn't exist today. RIP, brother.
I never met him but seen many of his post, as somethings I didnt agree w him but at the end he was still one of us a fellow Rockets fans. It's a shame to be so young and not strong enough to continue to wanting to live but only he knew what he was going through. Once you get in depression and lose hope and faith it's extremely hard to overcome. Sad part is the wife will live with guilt the rest of her life and the kids will grown up with out a father they will be the ones to suffer for his decision. R.I.P LL
that is the first song on one of my all time favorite albums, ladies and gentlemen we are floating in space - the entire record is basically about his breakup w/ his girl/keyboard player (and heroin). also, i think i can say that spiritualized is the best band ive ever seen live - my list of top 10 shows ever would have them in there 2 or 3 times. wish i didnt know the relevance of this song b/c now i wont be able to listen to it the same.
Music is the great communicator. I've listened to a lot of songs where you can feel the pain even in the instruments. When I listened to that song and put myself back in those shoes, its easy to see what kind of effect it had on him. So ****in sad.
Agree on Spiritualized being amazing live. Also agree that I can see how that song would have an impact on someone in that kind of state of mind. Tragic
I knew nothing about the guy other than seeing him post on here. As a father, I do know there is no amount of personal pain that would cause me to deprive my son of his dad.... but that's just me. Clearly he was suffering emotionally. But even still, from viewing his posts, his facebook page, etc. I believe that he made the ultimate mistake of making the worst choice at that one moment in time where he somehow convinced himself to make it.... if only he could have gotten past that one moment... As I said previously, RIP. I really feel for those kids...
I've read through this thread over and over. Wasn't going to post. Nothing to say. But that song is so haunting.
Having seen the movie, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, I can only imagine that all LL wanted was relief from pain of losing her. That's why I think this video on his FB page was so significant. If you haven't seen the movie, go immediately and rent it or stream it or whatever. You will see why this movie must have been so significant to him. I don't want to spoil it for anyone by giving the synopsis away.
Yeah, I agree. It was probably was just a moment where he gave up at the wrong time, in the wrong situation, but that's all it takes sometimes. I am sure he loved his kids dearly, but sometimes emotions can spiral out of control. This is all very sad and humbling to think about, but I am heartened by how people are treating this around here. It feels like people care about each other and that is about the only positive aspect of this.
I read where there was going to be some kind of service in the Tomball/Houston area this Saturday. Anybody know the details to share them with others who are local?
I don't come to this board all that often, in fact I dropped in just for a second the other day, and didn't see this thread, and saw somewhere else where they mentioned LL being gone. I had thought they were saying he left the board or something, but then I saw this today. I never knew him really well or anything, but he was definitely one of my favorite posters here. His music taste was very awesome. And the faith thing is something I can relate to. It is definitely NOT fun to go through that. Finding someone to talk to about that isn't necessarily easy, and its even worse when your friends and family don't accept it. But you can't force yourself to believe it. I tried, I'm sure he tried, but it just doesn't work, you can't really help but doubt it at a certain point. It kind of sucks, and its hard to get through, specially without anyone to help you. My heart goes out to the family and friends, and specially all the children. And that final song, the Spiritualized song, after finding out what he was going through from reading through all this, damn. I thought that song was beautiful when I first heard it, but in this situation, just leaves me speechless.
Does the difficulty come more from a personal distress for having lost one's faith or from rejection of family/friends?
