nobody here knows what youre going through or dealing with, but i know there are others here who have been pretty low at a various points in their life. its easier said than done, but you just have to hang on and know that you will come out the other side of whatever darkness you might be in now. its not a permanent state.
As corn said , when you’re in a dark hole it’s hard to see the way out but it’s there . Hang in there bro
I guarantee you can find help. Start here. You only get this experience of life once, unless the Indians are right. You can pull yourself out of your funk. https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
My house sold in 1 day thank you very much! ….The benefit of living by a school and being one of the few houses not next to sex offenders.
I sent my doctor a very nasty drunk note...so correct or not there's a zero percent chance she's refilling my scripts. I dont even remember posting half of this ****, where I went, how I got home
You have to get off the drugs and or alcohol. You're not going to be able to move forward without them. You're still here so that bodes well. I did a little Google research and sober living seems like it might work for you. I don't know anything about this but it's maybe an option. You'll have to go through them and call but it seems like an option
In Buddhism change is constant. Things will not always be the same. The mistake humans make is to try to hold onto pleasure but also pain. To believe that the state we are in will always be as it is.
I have never once incited or wished violence on anyone you liar!!!! I also don't do drugs and rarely drink. Just added you to ignore. I don't waste my time with bullies like you and a few others who troll for kicks.
This thread is really a metaphor about existence. We are for the most part just random people who we have no physical connection too. Many of us would have no idea who we are if we happened to be sitting next to each other. That anonymity means for that we can create our own reality and identity virtually. Because we can only perceive reality through our own perceptions identity and reality become the same thing. Bragging and self-loathing are really our attempts to control reality by trying to dictate how others perceive us. For example if I brag about how many hot women I sleep with, how much money I make, how cool the car I drive is, etc. That is me projecting outward a reality that I want others to accept. At the same time if I post about how miserable I am, how no one loves me, etc. That is also me projecting a reality that I want others to accept. As much as I would like that to be reality I can't actually control what others perceive about me. As much as I would like to believe that I can control reality, I can't. I can delude myself into thinking that people believe I am to be admired or hated but that is only my own perception of what others might be thinking. Ultimately how my life is percieved and how it affects others is beyond my control. The illusion we hold is that our lives are so important that the Universe should love us as we think we deserve and also that the Universe should hate us as we think we deserve.
