I realize my posting style will get me some sketchy replies, but I'm hoping for any helpful ones too I don't feel like finishing school and I barely feel like going to school. Once I'm there things are ok, but I'm 24 and just want to get my first damn degree (computer science) already. The past two semesters I've finally gotten out of the dreaded "core curriculum" and am now taking a majority of classes that related to my comp sci major. Also the first semester up on my own with an apartment to myself at Sam Houston State and I don't want to do a lot of leaving it except to take my dog out to the bathroom or for occasional walks. Lot more responsibility than I thought it'd be. It's nice, but used to having a lot of things done for me by my mom and that's not there anymore. Anyone else feel like this? I don't want to drop any CS classes this semester but I might be dropping one that I bombed pretty well on the first test. I've had a history with depression (and insomnia big time), but I take Cymbalta and I don't know. Just lifeless these days and it's depressing in and of itself. I don't feel like exercising much because I feel like exercise will only make me want to sleep more after I'm done. nom nom nom BOJANGLES
Ok so basically this isn't about school at all. Seek a professional about your condition? If so maybe get a second opinion. If it is indeed about school, maybe find another major that's not so depressing? It's not too late. Good luck!
yeah man I do see a shrink. it hasn't always been this way, but it has been this way for like the past 3-4 months. I was able to shrug it off in the summer just because I didn't have class, but it's tough now. my latest advice from my shrink a few weeks ago (which I told her about these things) wasn't extremely helpful either. She basically just suggested exercise (since we've tried 4-5 other antidepressants over the years, but the last different antidepressant was like 1-2 years ago. new psych maybe?)... which I didn't like that much as the sole solution for a $30 copay and traveling all the way from Huntsville to see her. I don't feel like exercising because I feel like exercise will only make me want to sleep more after I'm done. It is basically like that commercial for one of the anti-depressants where I feel like I have to wind myself up to get through the day and it's like a grand celebration when I do my school work, lol.
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I had mild depression in school and never finished. You seem to be in a worse situation though. My depression got worse during the winter. Vitamin D helped greatly, especially during the winter. Research has shown that Seasonal Affective Disorder is related to Vitamin D deficiency in the winter. Our skin makes less vitamin D, since there is a lack of sun. I take 4000 IU from Carlson's Solar Gems daily. Another thing that helps is fish oil, especially one that is higher in DHA than EPA. I like "Super DHA" from Carlsons. Am I cured? maybe yes maybe no. I feel much better, but I am not bouncing off the walls or anything. When I was tested for depression at the clinic, I test negative for depression. I still have my moods every now and then. You should google DHA "Omega-3" or "Vitamin D" and depression.
I am not any meds. The side effects made me feel worse. I was given Prozac, Paxil, and Zoloft. Meds are a crapshoot in determining what is causing the chemical imbalance. I was also worried about long term side effects.
<truth> and <save your judgment> One of my good friends, when work gets to the point where he wants to quit (or worse), he has "sex" at his gym's steam room. I have another friend, when she gets really depressed, she watches exclusively situation comedies to cheer herself up. Not saying that's what you should do -- just that you need to find that one thing that will not harm you or others, and will help get you through the day / week / month / year.
I second teh secks. If you don't already have one, get a gf and have it as much as possible. If you already have one, then you're not getting enough. Besides I thought most of the time a good workout wakes your body up instead of putting you to sleep.
First things first, I've been there. I actually quit school for awhile and took a long hiatus where I did absolutely nothing and regretted it. I felt worse and felt like I set my life back even more by not finishing school. I had all this free time with nothing to take it up and I didn't use my time wisely. Ended up digging myself deeper into depression and it was a b**** getting out of it. Frankly I'm still depressed but not as bad now that I'm busier. My suggestion is stay as busy as you possibly can. Exercise. It's good for you. It's a natural anti-depressant. It's an extra an hour throughout the day where you're doing something that's good for you and requires little thinking. Volunteer. Do meetups where you meet new people. Find distractions. Any distraction, although preferably ones that are healthy. And keep seeing your shrink. Most importantly though, don't give up. You'll feel much much worse if you do. Even if you're depressed while finishing school, at the end of the day you'll have something to show for it and you'll still be moving forward.
Well you don't seem that bad off. You're in school and you don't have any physical problems right? I'm kinda in the shoes as you right now. I tried Zoloft before but the side effects were ****ing me up more so I had to get off it. Try riding a bike round once a day or every other day for an hour and see how you feel. It's not that bad and the better your body feels, the better you feel; even if it's just that little bit. Just remember there's someone out there that has it worst than you.
you gotta find what is causing your depression...there's always something that started it all and triggered certain feelings which led to depression...think about it and fix that, easier said than done, but it's the only thing that's going to "fix" you permanently.
thanks for the replies back so far! to just add some notes, I do take fish oil twice a day (pretty religiously, for whatever mood-lifting properties it "might" have). so eh, at least that is going for me. I pop my neck too much of out nervous/bored habits too and I've literally gotten to the point where I have a fair amount of tension/upper neck/back pain. I've never thought it was possible and so that causes me a good amount of grief from time to time. Don't know what I should do about that. Hard to stop. Could one of them there asian peoples help me? I suppose I could exercise. Just need to make baby steps towards it and try and get it done. I won't feel like it at all unless I just kick myself out of the door. So I will give that a try for 45 mins to an hour. Been sick lately and so that hasn't helped me get back on the exercise route, but I will after.
funny that you mention that. I have picked up the guitar a little more lately. I know it helped my dad. I can't play for **** and haven't found the will to actually learn it, but I do like some cord strumming just to have something to listen to.
Dude yeah playing guitar is a great outlet for my restless ADHD/Depressed/lazy gene. It got me through a lot of ****ty days. And yeah... getting laid certainly helps
i feel you on the motivation to finish school. i'm in my last semester, and everyday i struggle to get out of bed, i just keep trying to tell myself 2 more months 2 more months, but im just so burnt out from 16+ years of school
