Day 21: Starting to have the withdraws again. Theyre back worse than ever. Yesterday morning I looked in the mirror and saw myself as a gian penis with a hand around it. I'm losing my mind and dont know how much longer I can hold out. The Walls are closing in and my hand seems to have a life of its own. I'm afraid its only a matter of time. Bonzi out.
I made it about 3 weeks while on my last dry spell. Then I tagged a rando one night and I went on a fap fest for like 2 weeks. So many times I had messed up the skins and had to give it up for a few weeks again. But now that I'm seeing someone I'm trying to cut it out between the days we see each other. Goal is to get down to only once a week, we see each other twice a week because she is on the other side of town, and after about 3 days I need a nicotine patch.
cant do it. maybe its my youth but i cant go 3 or 4 days before i start having rediculous dreams and I become too direct around girls
Didn't expect the GF to come over last night, so I fapped and went to sleep claiming tiredness. She was disappoint.
Day 3. My hand is shaking violently on its own, my vision is becoming blurred, and I can no longer enunciate words like I used to. This is madness.
I think there should just be a medium. Limit yourself to once or twice a week. Fap every day and I start to feel like crap, fap never and I start raging with testosterone and pop too quickly during sexy time. Moderation brehs.
^ True. I've said this before, but I will say it again: You should fap to KNOW your body, when to expect to 'pop', and when you can control those emotions that affect 'popping', like that scene you know is good, that centerspread you know will get you DONE, that picture of Bea Arthur that was perfectly photoshopped... you know what I mean. Once you've mastered this, lower the amount of fapping, until you're almost NOT fapping and you're OK with yourself. When you do get to do it WITHOUT fappin' with your partner, you will be in TOTAL CONTROL. It's about control and enjoying that with your partner. Yes, moderation is part of that. I can cut DIAMONDs.
